I JUST posted the following to my facebook...I'm my own worste emeny and my own biggest critic. I'm tired of it. I hold myself back. I am a HUGE BL fan. I need to lose about 15lbs to be @ my goal weight. Not much, right. But it's an enormous amount when you play mind games full of self doubt. Thank goodness for the "No Excuses" theme of season 13.
I have to stop making excuses. I can't keep waiting for things to happen by themselves. I have to stop letting fear and my desperate need for approval hold me back. I may not have the support and approval from the one I want it from most, but come on now! When in my life have I? It's not gonna happen. I need to accept that and stop waiting for it. I have the support from tons of other people who matter just as much. I'm not setting my goal for any one else anyway so why does it matter. I'm tired of all the noise in my head stopping me. I have to stop waiting for empty promises to be kept. As much as it hurts I know what will and will not happen.
This is MY time. It's my turn to take time for me and stop worrying about how I look doing it and how people see me. It's time for me to make myself a priority. No more excuses of not enough time, being too tired, having too many other people and things to take care of. I know I can do this. Time to turn a dream into a goal.
SO this year is the year I run for real, for me. The goal is a half marathon by October. And I will get it done.
